“I’m going to the shop this afternoon.” It’ll be a real hassle, starting afresh with a new phone, but there’s not much I can do about it. Except …
“In fact, I was wondering,” I add casually. “You don’t want to sell it, do you?”
“A company phone, full of business emails?” He gives an incredulous laugh. “Are you nuts? I was mad letting you have access to it in the first place. Not that I had a choice, Ms. Light-fingers. I should have set the police on you.”
“I’m not a thief!” I retort, stung. “I didn’t steal it. I found it in a bin. ”
“You should have handed it in.” He shrugs. “You know it and I know it.”
“It was common property! It was fair game!”
“ ‘Fair game’? You want to tell that to the judge? If I drop my wallet and it falls momentarily into a bin, does that give Joe Bloggs the right to steal it?”
I can’t tell if he’s winding me up or not, so I take a drink of water, avoiding the issue. I’m turning the phone around and around in my hand, not wanting to relinquish it. I’ve got used to this phone now. I like the feel of it. I’ve even got used to sharing my in-box.
“So, what will happen to it?” At last I look up. “The phone, I mean.”
“Jane will forward everything of any relevance to her account. Then it’ll get wiped. Inside and out.”
“Right. Of course.”
The idea of all my messages being wiped makes me want to whimper. But there’s nothing I can do. This was the deal. It was only a loan. Like he said, it’s not my phone.
I put it down again, about two inches from my bowl.
“I’ll let you know my new number as soon as I get it,” I say. “If I get any texts or messages—”
“I’ll forward them.” He nods. “Or, rather, my new PA will do it.”
“When does she start?”
“Tomorrow.”
“Great!” I smile a little wanly and take a sip of my soup, which really is the wrong side of tepid.
“She is great,” he says with enthusiasm. “Her name is Lizzy; she’s very bright.” He starts to attack his green salad. “Now. While we’re here, you have to tell me. What was the deal with Lindsay? What the hell did you write to her?”
“Oh. That.” I feel warm with embarrassment. “I think she misunderstood the situation because … Well. It was nothing, really. I just complimented her and then I put some kisses from you. At the end of an email.”
Sam puts his fork down. “You added kisses to an email of mine ? A business email?” He looks almost more scandalized by this than by anything else.
“I didn’t mean to!” I say defensively. “They just slipped out. I always put kisses on emails. It’s friendly.”
“Oh. I see.” He raises his eyes to heaven. “You’re one of those ridiculous people.”
“It’s not ridiculous,” I retort. “It’s being nice.”
“Let me see.” He reaches for the phone.
“Stop it!” I say in horror. “What are you doing ?”
I make a swipe, but it’s too late. He’s got the phone and he’s scrolling through all the messages and emails. As he reads, he lifts an eyebrow, then frowns, then gives a sudden laugh.
“What are you looking at?” I try to sound frosty. “You should respect my confidentiality.”
He totally ignores me. Does he have no idea of privacy? What’s he reading, anyway? It could be anything.
I take another sip of soup, but it’s so cold I can’t face any more. As I look up, Sam’s still reading my messages avidly. This is hideous. I feel like he’s rifling through my underwear drawer.
“Now you know what it’s like, having someone else critiquing your emails,” he says, glancing up.
“There’s nothing to critique,” I say, a little haughtily. “Unlike you, I’m charming and polite and don’t brush people off with two words.”
“You call it charming. I call it something else.”
“Whatever.” I roll my eyes. Of course he doesn’t want to admit I have superior communication skills.
Sam reads another email, shaking his head, then looks up and surveys me silently.
“What?” I say, nettled. “What is it?”
“Are you so scared people will hate you?”
“What?” I stare at him, not knowing how to react. “What are you talking about?”
He gestures at the phone. “Your emails are like one big cry. Kiss, kiss, hug, hug, please like me, please like me! ”